Now being on low-dose T for about six months Applying cream every single day. It’s really within the last two months that I’ve noticed a difference And I do wonder if it’s because the cream that I switched to was more potent in some way This last week, maybe the last five days My voice has been breaking a little bit, so that’s kind of why I wanted to make this update now. I mean if you look back at my other videos. I don’t think my speaking voice has changed very much. I just drove to a pharmacist on the other side of the city to pick up my AndroFeme cream. It’s when I squeal or try and hit the high notes or the high pitch Range of my voice that it kind of just cuts out I was climbing yesterday at the gym, and I fell off the wall bouldering A V4 or something and I slipped and I went to squeal and it was like those nightmares that you have when you try and make a sound and just nothing comes out. So I don’t know if I can recreate that but I -squeals- And it just kind of cut out. My voice has been kind of croaky a little bit, I thought I might be sick or I’d eaten too much dairy But it’s definitely been happening a bit. My shoulders have become a little broader I don’t know if you can even tell but I was wearing a t-shirt the other day and the T-shirt Lines which are meant to be here have kind of written up a little bit. One of my jackets I can’t fit anymore. My wife loves it because she’s getting all my old clothes and Looks great at them because I can’t fit them so she’s pretty stoked. But I guess I’ll have to go shopping. I I don’t know if I would directly blame my broadened shoulders on the Testosterone, I think how it kind of works is With the T and my body I have a bit more energy so I can work out longer and more frequently, so that’s where the muscle building has come from. I think if I was just on this cream and Exercising the same amount that I used to, I don’t think my shoulders Would have grown, so it is because of the exercise But I’ve been able to do more exercise because I’ve had a bit more energy a bit more stamina So that’s interesting. My stomach Has gotten hairier. It’s in the genetics. It’s just, there’s just fuzz happening. I also hear some people who aren’t able to cry after being on t for a while That hasn’t been an issue for me. I’ve been crying as much as I normally do I mean I feel happy It’s just you know if I’m watching a movie, and there’s a sad moment or if I’m watching a documentary And there’s a beautiful part that I feel like oh, I’m so happy I can still cry as normal that hasn’t been an issue I have put on a bit of weight It’s hard because I went from weighing myself in Kilos to weighing myself in pounds I’m really happy that I’ve done this for myself. My, not inspiration, but the people who I kind of looked to to see what this could look like were Lane I think their name is, and Neutrois Nonsense, were the two main ones. So I’m so happy with my chest I’m so happy with my hormones levels, my emotions. My moods Have definitely evened out My modes are definitely more mellow than they were when I was on that higher dose for a month And they’re more mellow than they were when I wasn’t on any dose at all So I don’t know, bodies are weird, but I feel really really great in this in-between state. I haven’t got my levels checked since last time because I don’t really think it’s necessary, but I’m assuming because I’m half, I’m on half of what I was when I was at 618, I’m probably at like 309 That’s a total guess, but, uh… Yeah, which is like technically? I think really really low cis male range, According to some people and then according to some people it’s in-between cis male and cis female. The bottom end of this cis male range varies a lot, I’ve seen estimates as low as 270 in some averages, and I’ve seen as high as 500. No one really knows, but I feel fantastic. I also know in my previous video I talked a lot about my sex drive being really high, That’s mellowed out again. I desire sex about twice a week now which is where I want to be at, it’s like I still get to Have a sex life and enjoy that, but it’s not Ruling my life. It’s not overtaking everything. um I still get to do other things and enjoy that too. So, um I Might update when I’m a year on the gel or the cream. I can’t really imagine that there are going to be many more changes. I might just get a little more hairy. Yeah, I can’t see why Much would change. I think if I went off the cream completely my energy levels would drop again And I might lose a little bit of muscle, mass although they say when you put muscle, mass on it’s harder to lose it again, which is why some people go on high dose T for a little bit and then go off it completely and just exercise to kind of maintain that. There’s another person on Youtube did that. I can link to their video as well. Oh I went climbing for 3 hours yesterday. I topped my first 11d for those who are Rock climbers, so that was exciting. So in some of my really early videos I talked about either not wanting to go on T at all, or really just being quite unsure about it. The reason that I did go on it, I just want to clarify, Was I was having really bad mood swings before (and during) PMS. I did go on Fluoxetine which is the Generic brand of Xanax for a little bit to try and fix that, it was terrible, I was getting headaches and dizziness and nausea, and apart from Fluoxetine The only other option that I really found that seemed like it would work would be low dose T for a mood regulation. I had more easy access to that because I already had top surgery. So it was considered like a gender transition thing, that’s really helped with the Moods. I don’t even realize if I if I’m at that time of the month anymore because the Marina’s stopped the bleeding and The low-dose T has stopped the mood swings, so it’s like barely even noticeable. That’s awesome. Reasons I wasn’t interested in going on T was I was really worried about genital growth and just being read as male Because I’m not. If you looked at my previous video. I did talk a little bit about genital growth That’s stopped since I went back to one pump of the cream. And I think this is where it’s going to be and it’s not a big deal. Haha, not a big deal. and it’s been really great it was always an option I Definitely don’t want to go higher But at the same time when people say that then they get a lot of shit if they then do. Yeah, I’m really happy with where I’m at. I finally found this This level that I like this space that I like. If you watch my previous T update my levels were too high and I wasn’t okay with that. I feel much better in my body now Mentally, physically emotionally. This is a really good space for me to be. But my insurance company won’t provide me the cream however They will provide you the gel. So next time when I run out of this cream I’m going to have to switch from the cream to Androgel, and I might have to kind of figure out my levels again.